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Hi friends. I don't know where I've been lately.

I last wrote about gamifying my life to replace the dopamine hits I get from using my phone. And it's mostly been working?? I've only relapsed and scrolled on social media a couple of times in the past week and a half. And I've been drawing and reading a lot more.

I have been watching a lot more YouTube, but I don't mind that since it's long-form content and I don't watch it on my phone. It hasn't given me the gross, overwhelming feeling that scrolling does.

I've been keeping up with my weekly newsletter, and I've also been revisiting my attempt to build a freelance business. I don't think I can work for a corporation anymore. I minded working a lot less when it was for start-ups. But working at an S&P500 corporation has never made me feel less like a person or more exploited.

I'm figuring out who my potential clients might be – I'm thinking it might be agencies or other similar teams that need content help. But also, I think I just need to find anyone who will pay me (on somewhere like Upwork) so I can build trust and social proof. That's what I'm working on now.

I tried to make freelance work for me a couple of years ago, but I focused too much on figuring out strategy and things like that when I needed to just reach out to people and start working right away. I'm sure the other things would've fallen into place if I had just focused on finding work first. But instead, I strategised too long and failed to gain any clients before my savings ran out. That's when I took my current job.

I've built up a bit of savings again, and I'm really tempted to quit in a few months. It'd be safer to get freelance clients now, though, before I quit. That's what I plan to do.

Ideally I'd keep my full-time job and balance it with freelance work as long as I could, to maximise my savings, but as a disabled person, I only have so much energy. And I really hate my job.